I thought a blog would be perfect for me as I am a big time thinker. I over analyze EVERYTHING and I have a hard time processing unless I write stuff down. I thought I would skip the traditional "journal" or "diary" and put all my stuff out there on a blog. You never know how you can help someone or how someone can help you by self disclosing. Here I am. Transparent as I have ever been with anyone..I must admit this is scary but exciting at the same time.
So, I'll start with what finally brought me here. Sigh...I have depression. I think. I work in the mental health arena and have family members with mental illness. Unfortunately, even in this day and age there is still a stigma associated with people who suffer with mental disorders. However, it is soo common and I think the world could be a happier place if people would take the time to educate themselves on disorders and become comfortable with talking about it AND most importantly, seeking help if and when they notice that they themselves are suffering with a disorder or have family or friends that are suffering. Depression affects 1 in 7 Americans every year. So, yea, it is very common. I also had a problem coming to terms with the possibility, but have finally realized that being down and out, unmotivated, and just an all out "negative Nancy" is not normal for me.
I am looking forward to moving within the next 4-5months with my fiance and I am excited about a new start but am nervous as well. I have been maintaining a long distance relationship for almost 2 years and it has been hard work. In addition, I am completely burned out on my current job and am battling with my weight. I live with my mom and dad right now (temporarily). I finished my master degree in Counseling about a year ago and have not quite figured out what I want to do with it. My interests have changed but I am trying not to make any rash decisions, such as going back to school to get my nursing degree, until I combat this depression. There you go. My life in a nutshell.
Pray for me, friends, as I break down and visit the psychiatrist to get to the bottom of these harsh thoughts and feelings I have been experiencing. You shall see within the coming weeks what I mean. Don't want to go on too much because I could write a book on my life just within the past year. Such is life. I am about to deal with it!
